DOING BETTER ...

Ok...so I've survived the day. The morning was terrible, but mother called & we met for lunch, had a good visit, then I went to the tanning bed & caught a 20 minute power nap. When I came home I felt much better. This afternoon I ended up napping again for about 2 hours. Guess I needed that. Been emotionally drained lately.

Mother's right. I've been going through a grieving process regarding my marriage. Thank God Billy's understanding about it.

Other than that, that's been my day, but at least I'm feeling somewhat better now. Mom told me I just need to change my perspective about a few things. Like this being MY home, rather than Ron's & my home. Afterall, Sandy left it to ME...not ronnie. That helped. She's got a pretty good perspective on things sometimes.

Mom's having some health problems. I think she's fighting congestive heart failure. She's got serious heart problems anyway. Her feet & legs are very swollen & painful & there's no other explanation for it other than her heart. Which means her days really could be numbered which is scary. Mom's been a lot of help to me lately. Although sometimes she can be a bit overbearing. Nevertheless, we're finally getting along well, which really means our relationship has come a very long way from what it used to be like.

Well, that's about it for now. I'm taking sister to get some new tires on her car tomorrow so she'll have a way to go. Then have laundry to do & a few other things to do. oh drudgery! Maybe I'll even wash my truck & Boomer tomorrow. We'll have to wait and see how I'm feeling in the morning when I wake up.

Well today i looked like a hoee.. it was so cool
i wore a skirt, with this cute little top. it was like a corrset top ( if thats how u spell it)
and i TALKED TO HIM TO TODAY.. ahh i got so happy for like 4 periods. i felt like i was on crack or something
and andrew oh boy. he better fucking delete my number from him fucking phone book.
god he pisses me off. and i know she told me not to.. but i do think about talking to nikki still.
i do miss her alot.. and i know she's with rob.. and thats cool...
but i just wish we wouldnt have stopped talking like we did...
but what can i say.. ?

agh ok.. sleep...

Love always erin..

Erin - you shouldnt stop liking someone just becauser he has a gf.. maybe they'll break up and you and him we'll get together dont say it cant happen because it could happen and it will happen.

later on she wrote...........
and you know what this whole xxxx is going to happen if its the last thing i do ! lol.
every girl wants a guy that is good to her. you just go to be Patient and wait. remember
" good things happen to the ones that wait "

see id love to believe her.. that i could actually be with him. but i know it is not going to happen.
he loves her. not me.. today was the first time hes said my name since we stopped talking.

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